photography Yoshiro Osaka
outfit Unbranded lace top / GIORDANO cardigan / Urban Outfitter velvet solid boots / Forever New eyelet bag / Unbranded chiffon floral maxi skirt
When I last had enough time to write--to catch a breath and blog--I wrote about emptiness (withdrawal, retreat, rejection, loneliness) as a kind of happiness. I wrote this because I felt this loneliness myself. (Don't you too?). And because I believe feeling alone (the empty air we all feel) deserves all the belief and self-respect one can give one's own little feelings. But I also wrote (and I SO MUCH wanted to believe it when I wrote it) that happiness can be very much the opposite: everything, every idea, every moment, every desire we embrace is beautiful and full of unknown potential (whether it is good or bad potential, simple or complex, unknown or all too intimate).
And you know what. I wrote it. And it became true. (I believed it. I half-believed and half-doubted everything. I wanted to believe it and it became true).
My life has taken an unimagined turn, first in my words and then in my feelings and then in the real world around around me. (I have so much to tell you about my new friends and my new life and the journey we are on travelling across the planet, creating something together, a movement that I want you to be a part of, but I have no time right now).
In just a moment, everything can change. I wrote it and now I am in the "rush" I wrote of last time. A perpetual drama I could have never imagined. An explosion of life and love somewhere between what I knew my whole life and what I could never have imagined just a week ago. Girls, we are alive and nothing can stop where we are going!
"AND THIS. IS ANOTHER. HAPPINESS."
*Note: This update was written "in my voice" by my new friend and creative partner who has a voice just like me (surprise!).
Ryan Barton: Founder, Human Agency
the super kind photographer, Yoshi-san!
meet my new family from Human Agency Indonesia!